Anyways, today at work it was soooo much fun. First off, Celine and Joanne (bosses) weren't there and Hiba couldn't make it cuz she was sick leaving me and Angie and three PSA's (later two because one went home) left. I got upgraded for two hours to be a tthe desk. I got 20.40 and hour so times that by two is like 40 that would be like me working four hours reguralrly at 10$
xD
LOL i need the money now (to pay back dad) lol. I'm pretty bored right now, and oh yeah, if you still haven't seen this ::
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I am not looking forward to sunday -_- a whole day stick inside with my dad. great. lol, i'll try asking again if i can go to the park, but i already know the answer. i swear i will crack any day soon and just leave even if it's without permission. i just want time outside the house. you can't make me quit cold turkey of not being allowed ot go outside T_T it's just too much to take.
And the school year is almost done and look where we are now. One year from graduating, and one more year of drama, which i hope will not be. I am so thankful for the friends i have though they may get angry at me sometimes because i screw up, but i don't know what i would if i lost them at all. Thinking back to a certain rain filled event, friends don't last forever unless you try. So i'm going to try my hardest to have my friends with me after high school, even though we will al take different routes. And to a certain someone, Without you , i would've cracked many months ago, but you always made me feel better.
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later,
-Adders (Addie)
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:Prayer of the Refugee- Rise Against
Dad: Where are you going?
Ada: to return books
Dad: Why? You don't have to go, it's not like there overdue or something.
Ada: [starting to get pissed] Umm yeah half of them are.
Dad: You don't have to pay overdue fees.
*Dad goes to laundrey room*
*Ada goes to get a paper towel to clean the tables outside.*
Dad: You're not going. I'll go with you.
Ada: Yeah OKAY! I don't care. I have to return books. That's it. I'm going.
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So i left and before leaving i asked him whether he's going or not. Dad said no. WTF? I hate this fucking house! I feel so claustrophobic here. Like yeah i know what i did was stupid and fucked. But really this is just too much. If only i can tell my dad that i started up again simply because of everything that is going on.
Ugh. I knew from the moment i woke up that there was going to be at least two fights today. Yeah, it's only 11:55a.m. and already three fights. I wish I could just leave for the whole day, or the whole weekend and not come back 'til I have to.
Thank God you decided not to go to the festival. You face there would've made me stop playing in the middle of a song, leave Farky angry at me and me hitting walla in the washroom. You wonder why i spend so much time in my own room? It's because it's as far away from everyone . and sadly it's not enough. This weekend has only just begun and i want it to end. Heather and Ryan might be pissed later. (I'm really sorry. I know that Heather will kill me.)
I want so many things but you are none of them. If i could i would live on my own. Sadly, I'll have to wait 'til i (hopefully) get into Ryerson. I'll live downtown and not in the house. You'll be happy. I'm sure.
*Ada sitting on the chair near computer.*
Dad: Do you need the internet.?
Ada: Not at the moment.
Dad: OKay. (unplgus modem.) Bye.
WTF?! enough is enough. wtf is his prblm? I think its because of what happened earlier. i went downstairs to ask him whether i could go to the park to take pictues. and before i could ask, he was like good! we can go shopping now. and i was like i don't want to. and then he goes off on me about how he doesnt feel like it too, but he has to. So i left.
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ill write later maybe
Things at home have been great because my moms sister came from Poland so i have no fights to face although i still try hard to not screw up. i dunt want to be the fuck up of the family. ..My sister knows what i did, and its not that i care or anything, because hse doesnt treat me any differently, but its just the fact that my mom told her =/. i wish it wazs like ryans rents who say yeah you fucked up learn from it and move on basically.
I had a lot of stupid thoughts, and i may tell you that one of them was not a good idea. That's all I'll say because i dunt wanna go on further. LOL.
I just want the good times rolling on and i want to be part of everyone, to make them happy , and be by their side as an ear to listen to them.
wanting to be so many things,
-Adders
We learn about Gatsby’s Past.
- Was born on a farm in
Attended College.
- He attended college for two weeks.
- He dropped out because he was frustrated with the way he had to pay for his tuition. - --- Doing janitorial services.
Dan Cody
- One day Gatsby saw Dan Cody’s yacht drop anchor in
- “The truth was the Jay Gatsby of West Egg, Long Island, sprang from his Platonic conception of himself. He was a son of God-a phrase which, if it means anything, means just that-and he must be about His Father’s business, the service of a vast, vulgar, and meretricious beauty” (Fitzgerald 99).
- This quote shows that it compares Gatsby to Jesus to show that Gatsby creates his own identity. This is also a motif that keeps showing up throughout the book as it Gatsby transforms himself into the ideal that he envisioned for himself despite the numerous obstacles he would have to face.
- “for a while these reveries provided an outlet for his imagination; they were a satisfactory hint of the unreality of reality, a promise that the rock of the world was founded securely on a fairy’s wing” (Fitzgerald 100).
- Gatsby is going to try to make the unreal real.
- Cody takes James Gatz (Gatsby’s legal name until he was seventeen) as his assistant on his yacht and gives him the name Jay Gatsby.
$25,000.
- At the time of Cody’s death, Cody leaves $25, 000 to Gatsby. However, Gatsby was unable to retrieve any money because Cody’s mistress, Ella Kaye, wouldn’t allow him.
Gatsby Determined
- Since Gatsby was denied the money, Gatsby is determined to become a wealthy and successful person.
Summary- Chapter six
At the beginning of Chapter Six, Nick fills us in with parts of Gatsby’s early life. We learn that James Gatz was born on a farm in
One day Gatsby saw Dan Cody’s yacht drop anchor in
Cody takes James Gatz (Gatsby’s legal name until he was seventeen) as his assistant on his yacht and gives him the name Jay Gatsby. At the time of Cody’s death, Cody leaves $25, 000 to Gatsby. “He never understood the legal device that was used against him, but what remained of the millions went intact to Ella Kaye” (Fitzgerald 102). Since Gatsby was unable to receive his inheritance, Gatsby is all the more determined to become a successful and wealthy person.
The rest of the chapter is about how Nick finally sees Gatsby and Daisy several weeks after their reunion at Nick’s house. Stopping by Gatsby’s house, Nick is alarmed to find Tom Buchanan there. Gatsby seems nervous and tells Tom that he knows Daisy. Gatsby invites Tom and the Sloane’s to stay for dinner, but they refuse. Tom is disapproving of Gatsby’s lack of social grace. Tom is also very suspicious about Daisy’s habit of visiting Gatsby’s house alone; however he has not discovered Gatsby’s and Daisy’s love for each other.
The following Saturday night, Tom and Daisy go to a party at Gatsby’s house. Gatsby seeks out Nick after Tom and Daisy leave the party; he is unhappy because Daisy has had such an unpleasant time. Nick reminds Gatsby that he cannot re-create the past. Gatsby, distraught, protests that he can because he believes that money will solve everything. Nick reflects that since Gatsby’s and Daisy’s kiss, the moment when his dream of Daisy became the dominant force in his life; Gatsby’s dream is over now that he’s got her.
my parents wont let me forget what i did. and they will never plan to forget me. so part of the fight last night was how in the future i will have no one , i will have no family and how i will be alone in this fucking world.
my parents think so much about me that they say id true, but in factt none of it is true.
the reason why im always so angry or whatever is because they dont treat me like a daughter of as a person. they just say we are the parents bow down and do as we say =/
my dads like you know that your step mom is more of a mom to you than your real mom. and then he's like you know you have never asked about your real mom, and i know i couldnt answer back why but in my head. i said that i didnt ask because i thought it would be too painful for you, dad, and perhaps it might have hurt me as well because i will never meet her ever again until i die.
so he's like i think you should go see a therapist again. and i was like staring at him with all this rage. i couldnt believe it. things from a year ago are starting to pop up again. you know what i might as well go just so that i can finally let things outta my chest about the way i feel whenever me and my dad fight and what not.
*waiting for university...
-Adders
i guess i broke that,,,,
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can't wait for tomorrow :] gonna be wicked
I'm going crazy!
I just wanna leave the house and do something
Lately i havent been able to go out b4ecause of something i did.
At least I had badminton most nights so that i wouldn't be home. =/
But now badminton is over and i have no other way to get out of the house.
I asked my dad on friday night whether i could go see an movie on saturday and he's like no
T_T
So all of yesturday I didnt really talk to him, i was just depressed at the fact of not being able to do anything.
when he asked me why i was sad i was like huh?
and today i've been going crazy with homework, which i'm not even close to finishing. I'm just tired =/
I don't want to stay up late again today =/. but i think i might have to.
On other news, stuff at school is going okay except for some fuckers in photograpghy >=(
Me and Ashley were working on a picture with the negative in our enlarger and everything. we leave for a minute to look at a test print. (we had everything set up like EVErything) we come back i turn on our enlarger and what do i find? someone else's picture. so i asked semi-nicely "yo who's is this?" and then this gangster guy was like thats mine. so im like, " alright im taking it out cuz we were working here." and he's like no you're not and you havent been here all class. so im like, " yeah we were gone for a minute, fuck you im taking it out."
so i toss it to the side and put my negative in. so he starts on me, " are the fucking queen of the darkroom to tell me to fuck off? you're a bitch ..and so on."
i just stood there not moving not talking because that guy was a douche. he says to me," as sooon as you leave your enlarger i'n taking it back." and i'm like " uh no you're not."
i stood by the enlarger for the rest of the period and asked ashley to do all the developing or for her to stay there while i do it. Then his gangster friend comes in and accidently turns on the lights int he darkroom.
how the hell can you ACCIDENTLY TURN ON LIGTHS?!
heather's picture was in the firtst chemical; her GOOD copy. well of course it got exposed, so i naturally went to her in the classroom and told her about the photo because she should know why it got exposed.
so the guy who turned on the lights , started saying snitch snitch when heather and i came in.
i wasn't sure whether i should tell Zaton about what happened because i origonally said fuck you to him. but i swear if it happens again i dunt care i'm telling.!
let me be a snakkkke!!! see if i care..
like really
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anwyasy thank you for letting me rant dear livejournal =P
It's just that those types of people really piss me off. Funny thing is the guy i said fuck you too, i've known since grade 6!
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haha
Mr. Farguson: there's practise on tuesday, you should come.
Ada: uhh yeah, sir i'll try. i've just been so busy,
Mr.F : alright
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tuesday rolls around
Mr.F: Where were you?
Ada: sorry sir i slept in
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i dunno why, but i just dont feel like going to music, like i wasnt to be in the festival but i dunno it just seems like it's not my priority anymore =/. in a way this is making me sad too, because music was the one thing i could never get enough. i guess its friends who tell me how gay music is =/
~*~
If our Photography class only had these people:
Heather
Denise
Ashley
Stephanie
Tania
Katrina
Angelica
Gilbert
(i think thats it)
that class would be freaking awesome!!
i can't wait till we're allowed to take cameras home =D i wanna buy like three rolls of film and then take pictures of friends and develop them secretly lol.
well i guess i should go now got loads of freaking english to do X.x
- Mood:
crazy bad
i just want to crawl into a bed and never come out.
eyes still hurt, and i'm adding "water" to them.
i want it all to end.
to much stuff at once to handle..
i guess the only good thing is We finally beat one school in badminton~~!!!!
NEWMAN!
-A.D.D.-ers
Violets Are Blue,
Winter Is Cold,
And The Sky Is Blue.
lol
makes absolutely no sense. So yeah Practise went horrible >=( i f i had known o'connor wasn't going to be there i would have never came.like really i did not intened to do drills and nothing but drills until 7 (mind you we start at 5 30) and then get freeaking yelled at by sciberass to move faster because i wasnt keeping up with the senoir guys on the team
LIKE WTF?!
then he plays me for 6 straight games, the fucking dufus never realized that i barely used to left leg to stand on.
yeah i limped off the court finally when he let me..and he's like "Ada whats with your ankle." >=((((((
So when i got home i asked my mom to look at my ankle and she's like it's a little bit swollen. and i'm like FUCK this couldnt have happened at a greater time >=(
so overall, this is pretty bad. BUT, i'm detirmined to get to practise at 7:30 a.m. on monday morning to play.
A.D.D-ers!!! LOL i like it.
So i should be sleeping now but lol i dunt feel like it xD Nick came by work today without me knowing lol <3 thank you for the card as well =)
well i guess my ranting about fucking sciberass is done see ya later =)
-Adders,
a.k.a A.D.D.-ers
- Mood:
cranky
And I'm sorry for that too..
Probably the biggest blow to my face.
I'm sorry.
- Mood:
sad
Nine months ago,
It seems so long ago.
All that remains,
Is a memory.
What was,
And who I had become.
Salvation;
Hidden under strings.
Hidden beneath the surface.
Minds racing,
Hearts breaking,
Never resting to find its peace.
Salvation.
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Alright so its pretty shitty. i just thought about something. LOL. well as for my third post of the day =P i shall go off LJ now
-Adders
- Mood:
blah
And the wheel of fortune has turned once again and the fortunes bestowed negatively have started to change.
I finished my English, and then I has to edit it, it’s not the best it could be but its good enough. The thing that got me really CHESSED! Is the fact that that my average for semester 1 is 79!!!!!!!! Crap man that just means you’re good but not good enough. Like shit all I needed one percent. = (not being on the honor roll again = (oh well …next year’s the charm?
So yeah, I decided to skip religion class again. This is like the eighth time this semester and lol I don’t regret it because I haven’t missed anything major. Which is a good thing. I’m sorry Jon Carl I will not skip again =P.
Today we had badminton practice in the morning at
So as I was saying, sorry about my boring talk of tactics, I played Apple and Abigail two s. one, and guess who won?! Well of course me I tried using that tactic, although it was a bit harder because two people are a lot easier than one, it proved that using this tactic if effective even against doubles.
Alright getting away from my badminton talk, after school was jokes! I fell on my ass, and then I tripped Sylvia into the snow a billion of times, not to mention how I finally tripped over Ryan XD. I’m sorry Nick for hitting you with snow. I feel really bad. Hope you’ll forgive me someday. Lol it was jokes indeed.
Tomorrow morning I have music practice. Kind of don’t want to go but I don’t want to let Fargy down lol. Wednesday after school, well technically around two we (the badminton team) are going to Liberman where we will have our faces smashed to the ground once again. I really want to play singles. But point being. Thursday I have badminton practice from five
- Mood:
content - Music:Diary of Jane- Breaking Benjamin
Letter to my body
Dear Hair, I don’t like you. Thank you for putting up with all my damages to you. I’m very sorry.
Dear Eyes, thank you for being gorgeous I wish I could marry you.
Dear Mouth, I’m sorry I don’t use Chap Stick. I promise I will use some soon.
Dear Arms/Hands, I’m sorry for all the things I have done to you. From carrying heavy boxes and books to my cooking skills.
Dear Hands, why are you so dry?
Dear titas, I’m thankful but why do you have to get so big? =P
Dear stomach, I have nothing to say to you.
Dear Curves, Couldn’t you be more defined?
Dear Thighs, thank you very much for absorbing everything into you -_-“.
Dear Legs, Thank you for surviving the running, jumping and suicide drills in badminton. I’m surprised you still work.
Dear Mind, Why do you have to taunt me so? Making me have to relive everything as soon as it happens. And then making me feel so down and shitty.
Why the hell should I go downstairs if I’m going to do nothing but stare at the wall thinking wtf am I here?! …I can’t close my bedroom door, because they think I’m being too secretive. Like what the hell? I WANT SOME FREAKING PRIVACY --__--“.
You want to talk to me go ahead and I would be happy to voice my opinion whether positive or negative. The door is not meant to not let anyone through. It is made so that I can have my own space; my sanctuary. I want a place where I can be myself and not have to worry about what my parents think.
Yes, I’m going to be ranting a lot because lately everything has been pissing me off =/ for example, I get really pissed off when I’m walking and then there’s like two people walking towards me and they don’t even bother to move into single file. One day I would like to push those people.
So a couple of days I got into a big fight with my parents, one thing led to another, and then another, and like the “wheel of fortune” it came full circle. The whole fight went back to the exact same one we started off from, which made mo fucking sense. One minute we’re talking about how I don’t care about the house or anything, the next we’re talking about how I come home alone from a friends house. Wtf?
…next day, my dad acted as if nothing has happened. Wtf, I hate it when parents do this like if you’re going to fight for like three hours, then shouldn’t you still be pissed the next day? I don’t get it. I hope I’m not like that when I grow up to be a parent.
Going unto a different topic, grade twelve English is not that hard. It’s just that you have to be in class every day otherwise you’ll probably end up missing something important, like assignments and whatnot. So if you’re really sick, forget about going to periods one to three just be sure to get there for period four. If I got sick I’d consider wearing a body suit just so that I wouldn’t miss the class. =/ but then again I don’t think the school would let you in. lol. Mr. Correia is a great teacher and I’m so glad I got him, but he moves way to fucking fast. On the first day of semester two, it is expected that you just go to each class to figure out where your classes are and what is expected in each class. I missed the first day because I skipped, it was a fun day. Point-being, in English class they already started reading King Lear. --__--“.
So on more recent news. I had to get a new td card. Because the security people think that someone may have been trying to get my information and tried to use it somewhere. So I had to get a new one… I went to the store to try it out, and at first I gave them my metropass, without realizing what I’d given them to swipe. So the cashier person didn’t realize and tried to swipe it again and again, until Nick said out loud why did you give him your metropass, and I’m like oops! ..Then when I tried swiping I put in my old pin LMAO.
I found the funniest thing on Youtube, here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84_QL1kEm
Lol. Thanks guys for trusting me with preparing the film for the chemical stuff. Lol I was so nervous that I took twice as long. The dark bag you use you can see in it because it has to be dark to put the film. So you have to do it all by sensing. And because I understood what it is meant to blind and all I can say is those people are amazing.
I’ve skipped so many classes this week. I don’t know why but I really didn’t feel like going to religion. By the way, I’m sorry Stephanie for ditching you and I promise that next week I’ll be in. hopefully. Next, I’m sorry to nick for not telling him in advance whether I’m skipping or not. I was inconsiderate and I will not let it happen again. You mean everything to me and I don’t want to do anything to make you sad. =)
Overall, this week has been pretty shitty; I look forward to a better week ahead. W00t! I’m getting paid on Friday! I may act as if everything okay, but in truth I don’t think I am.
One last thing before I leave,
-Adders
“Not so funny now is it, funny man?”
GRADE 12 ENGLISH IS KILLING ME ALREADY!!!!
we're already almost done act 1 of King Lear.
Already had a pop quiz on it
we have an assignment due two weeks from now on act 1, 2, 3 of king lear
we also got the beginning of our isu
well we got to choose the book anyways
basically for the isu, you have to pick a book from a list and then write a comparitative essay on that book and one of the books that we have to read in calss...
those books are:
a street car named desire
heart of darkness
king lear
the great gatsby
so yeah.................
when will they ever learn?
- Mood:
drained
Period 1 : Photography
Period 2: Religion
Period 3: SPARE!
lunch
Period 4: Grade 12 english.
lol.
this semester has gone by so QUICK! So much has happened, the only thing that i can't believe is everything went by so quickly. i have regrets for my actions before and after.
so many thoughts racing through my mind, some of them lead to one action, others are about happy things (ilysm<3)
you may be a nerd but i guess you're my nerd =PP ahahah
im so thankful for great friends like Ryan and Sylvia. and Nick well lol.
=P im kidding =)
If it weren't for them i probably would've gone nuts by now. lol
one more year and done of school.
one more year of all the drama
one more year of great fun
one more year to be me.
lol
-Adders =/
- Mood:
blah
But thats all passed, through one of my stupid mistakes, god what an idiot i am . i should've known better. but now it's all to late.
things have grown distant now, i dunt know anything about them anymore, i think we might lead different lives.
we'll be friends forever, i heard that, i believed in it sooo much.
whether i invite them to my special day off in the future i don't know but one things for sure,
i missing the good old days =(
-Ada
